63days~~ =D

this song is for you. I Love You dear. <3 Always and forever.

I know you're thinking of me now. =)

I'm just wishing that the next time we see each other will come soon~

*huugs* (Imagining~ <3)

I will always be grateful for the gift you've given me. It's th best thing that could possibly have happened in my life. I miss you too, but like you said each moment that passes brings us closer to the next time we see each other. So just hold on. =). I Love You.

daamn that word is difficult to spell. (superfluously anfractuous. haha)

it's the middle of the 2week holiday that int'l sch students get to enjoy specifically over those poor local schools. haha. so i'm like, really bored.

i did manage to go out every single day the first week tho. which is some major improvement over my previous holidays. which were basically rotting away at home and spamming some no-life shit like PS3 or com. and oddly enough i used t think that THAT was having fun and real enjoyment of the holidays. man, how things have changed. like, ALLOT. ALOTALLOT

it's like, i was reading my old blog posts (bloody hell were they retarded. like, i have no idea wad used to run through my old mind just 2 years ago). so much has changed. haha this is like shaping up to be another "reminisce" post again. but, hey, you can never have enough of missing th past.. or.. smth like that. wadever.

one thing that really hit me was like, how i used to post about YCS events. haha. last time it was like "yay i got in the same group as ivan and weichong". now, it's like, heck i'm likely the one assigning the groups or smth (well not really, but you get the idea). i don't belong to groups anymore, i'm helping to run th whole thing. =P.

it gets you thinking y'know, how you used to be a participant, and have SUCH different expectations and requirements of events. and now to plan, you need to look at participants' view, which don't become as apparent as before. it's so.... i dno how to describe luh, it just makes me think, feel. like idk. lol

now that sec 4 is well and truly over (that is, it's been so long since then that it really feels like it's gone), i reaally miss all the things that we used to do. staying back in class LOONG after the final bell's gone for the end of school. still being in class at 4.30 when school ended at 2.10. spending that whoooole time playing frisbee/paperballs/bottlecaps and then sitting arnd and talking random shit. how can ANYTHING beat that life man. wonder how many hours we wasted just stoning in class. haha. so many happy memories.

and i miss pissing off menghui and jiyang by writing her name everywhere and almost every chance i got.

yeaaaahhhh. haha. and the SS TYS thingy where i highlighted her name by cancelling out all the other letters. her name definitely is one of the easiest names to do that with lol. so retarded.

meeting up w the whole vivek clan (minus menghui, and vivek. -,-) again reminded me of how things used to be. and how cool it is that we still continue to talk so much and bond together. makes me think about 20 years down th road, and how i always see my parents meeting up w ppl they haven't seen in a long time whom they've known for dno how many years, and they still talk and are best of friends. And i am seriously looking forward to menghui's proposed class trip to korea 10 or 20 years down th road. if it happens at all. haha.

and y'know, before this year started, i was actually wondering if i could make frens at all. i mean, it had been such a long time since i actually made a fren. cos i was alrdy frens w everyone in class (not remembering how it happened at all. lol), and all my other frens. so i was like, how did i make frens last time? can i even do it again? stupid thinking haha. now i've got pretty good frens in SJII. and yes, once again it's a bit fuzzy how i became frens with them. xD. heck, i don't rmbr the first time i talked to ANYONE. like w vivek, who INSISTS it started w double cheeseburgers, but i believe that was just some random story that wasn't true. but, like when you first talk to someone you don't know that you're gonna become good frens. so, yeaaaaaah. or my memory just sucks. i'm going for the latter. haha.

like, right now i am REAAALLYYY glad i chose IB. looking at all my frens in JC, they kena spammed with work like shiit. and i'm still happily slacking my days away. and no it's not cos right now is my hols. i swear, during the JC ppl's holidays, i was still more free than them, even tho i still had sch. JC is just waaaay to xiong. even tho i have activities 4 out of 5 days, i still end sch arnd same time as them. and my IB timetable is sooo much better than JC. i feel anyway. haha, so much for the saying "the grass is always greener on the other side". but hey, even if somehow or other JC life was better than IB, i'm not gonna regret my decision. making this decision i just told myself, make it, and stick w it. no regrets.

which kinda doesn't explain why i'm soo obsessed w VJ being the BEST SCHOOL EVAR. haha. it's damn cool, how i managed to fool like soooo many ppl into thinking i got posted to and i'm studying in VJ. but idk why luh. i guess th hopes and dreams of pre-Olvl and signing of contract just stayed. i mean, it was supposed to be th awesome 431 trio. Me, Ji Yang, Vivek. all going to VJ, and kicking ass. it would've been so effin awesome. but, it ended up only JiYang going t VJ. funny how things can change. *shrug*

well, yeah. so... i guess that does it for reminisesiscinging. i guess. can't quite gather my thoughts. kinda stoned/sleepy right now. xP

alright, so, yeah i went out the whooole of the first week.

Monday, movies (diary of a wimpy kid) w SJII ppl (SCGS + okay i have no way to classify. xP)

wingman-ing Nikhil and choosing Kevin randomly as the Alpha male. haha. then talking cock at PlazaSing food court, and getting lost by th girls' gossiping. then walking for pancakes but it was closed. then going to some random milkshake place.

Tuesday, morning was. uhhhh. a blank space of memory. nvm. but in th afternoon went to sji to drop by their YCS meeting. it was pretty well run. they have JOURNALS. like woah. and haha jeremy lieu gave a session abt th Lord's Prayer. i dun tink i rmbred that he was catholic at all. xP but yea now to think abt it he is. i tink. oO. well, i'm going back again next tues. they're gonna have praise and worship. so that's cool. met Joshua, first time in a looooooong time. then he pangseh-ed me after ycs meeting cos his fren dragged him to th bus stop. meh. then i went to Punggol Park again to chillout. but i fell asleep for abt 5 minutes. was kinda sleepy haha. was spending th past few days doing project Aerith. xP

Wednesday, morning hung out w Brian, played BlackOps, and also tennis. it was quite fun. i kinda managed to juggle three balls. but only once. throw and catch. then in the afternoon met Carrie, to go huisuo to do th dore. went AMK hub subway for lunch, kena scam by the stupid subway special offer thingy, and randomly picked up another special offer card. haha. ate a meatball footlong. went Jubilee (first time i ever heard of it or been thr) popular to buy paper. then went back to AJ, this time i DIDN'T get rejected by th security guard. waited for Carrie to go settle changing CCA stuff. then got more or less lost in getting to huisuo. -,-. retarded. lol. went huisuo, took note of the model of th busted photocopier, blasted music, took a halfhour nap while Carrie did th dore =P. then finished and zao-ded home.

Thursday, went badminton at Cairnhill CC (nvr heard of before), w Nikhil Sarah etc. it was pretty fun, except th raquet i took sucked, th grip damn old and like disintegrated and turned my hand th same colour as Nikhil xD. and my shoe broke. -,- damn annoying. then Ryan planja-ed pizza. THEN, we took a cab to SICC. Singapore Island Country Club. like, seriously, a CLUB. =O. then Nikhil went to shower, and the shower room thr was damn epic. haircare products galore. like wtssss. then Isaac called and told us to order first, and just put it on Ryan's tab. WAIT. HANG ON A MINUTE. PUT IT ON HIS TAB??. like, TAB. SERIOUSLY??? man, Nikhil and I were totally freaking out over that. lol. sooooo cool. to say "put it on my tab". owned. then after lunch, played a bit of pool, then bowling. it was okayokay. but my arm muscle was damn tired and pain frm th whole week's activities. lol. then Ryan is like some ownage pro at bowling. can friggin curl th ball (hahaa typoed that as bawl, and bowl).

Friday, celebrating Remy's bday. and also April fools'. went to Sarah's house, where there is a Porsche, Pool, Pool table, Grand piano, etc. Played pool, had cake, half-watched a horror movie, talked a bit. And read th Bro Code, which was quite cool, and funny. I managed t beat Ryan at pool. =O. some skills, and probably a lot of luck. xP. It was a fun time. Then went to SJI for P&W session. Met Joshua agaain, and showed off. =P. like, yay i can do EVERYTHING. lawl. fooled him for a bit thinking i knew how to use a skateboard. P&W was pretty good, altho th lights should have been turned off. and some ppl weren't into th proper mood. but th sharings frm SJI alumni were good. and as for April Fool's, i got fooled. but i maintain that th only reason i got fooled is cos i'm a good fren. and i had it in mind that they were all possibly april fool's jokes, but i believed them anyway, better safe than sorry. There was Carrie's IMH self-pwning prank, and Kim's getting pissed off prank. i got back at Kim by acting pissed off in return tho. lol. then thr was Darryl's one day early prank, "does this person look familiar to you?". As for pranks of my own. i didn't do any. couldn't think of decent ones. lol. but if i had i bet i would've totally been able to pull it off. epic scamming skills. Carrie and I DID prank Ivan though. damn epic luh. now whenever either of us posts "IIIIIVVVVVVVVVVAAAAAAAAAAANNN" on his wall he's gonna freak out cos he thinks we're gonna tell him smth which will ruin his life. xD. owned

Saturday, AJ carnival. It was pretty okay luh. thr was a bunch of games, and food, and stuff. huge plastic balls whr ppl go in and roll at each other. turned out less epic than expected. dunking machine, nth much to say abt that. some huge inflatable castle in th hall, which was okayy... like, th first part, Carrie and i were just wandering arnd. i tried Carrie's stall and failed. lol. i can't rmbr th order of th day.. hmm.. went to check out th xbox360/Wii stations. they only had kinect games, and some other random wii games. which i guess was an okay idea for games. but they really should have ROCK BAND or GUITARHERO. seriously. haha. watched Carrie's classmates play Mario kart, which was damn spastic, random high pitched screaming. then we played also, i won. =D. checked out th random stuff that was happening on stage, bingo, some performances. there was song dedication, and Carrie wanted to ask them to play Friday. they eventually did but we were in th wii booth. epic timing dodge. xD th dance performances were a'ight, th popper was okay. i mean like, his performance was definitely creative, but as usual w popping thr isn't rly a whole lot you can do. so his creativity was admirable, and it was a pretty good performance. the bboys, well, it wasn't easy to choreo and sync all th footwork. but they didn't really do a whole lot. and i think it was a bit too long with not enough "wow" moments. suure they had power moves in there, but nth that really stunned th crowd or make them go woah. or atleast, not for me, for me it was only when i recognised th moves that they did. haha. ("that's not a freeze, that's not a freeze, that's not a freeze, that's not a freeze either"). bought Halo3 for FIVE FRIGGIN DOLLARS ZOMG. xD. epicwin jumble sale frm the interact club. but th armoredcore4 i bought was in japanese. zzz. went to th xbox booth to try out and test th games xD. then went to th wii. watched some ppl play SuperSmashBros. damn spastic. haha. ("POKEMON TRAINER"). then we played also. random button mashing. bought Anderson's Icecream. (go figure, Anderson JC). also met a bunch of SJI ppl who i had no idea were in AJC. xP. Kenny especially sad, Carrie didn't recognise him. one of Carrie's classmates randomly came up to me and asked "do you go SJI international" like wuuuut omg stalker haha. he knows Nikhil and Sarah, frm HCI also. then th sushil guy damn hyper, do th fistbump handshake thing w me. helped take a picture of Carrie's class. then zao-ed for catechism

and today, Sunday, slacked off the whooooooooooooooooooooole day lol. been blogging, finishing the random update, then typing out this uber long shit. feeling damn sleepy and shag. idk whhyy. took a 1hr nap today. mmm

okay. sheesh. enough of this. i'm done. (finally)

Payce out,

Justin Cyril Ng

it's been 3 months since the start of school in SJII. (now 4 actually, i put off finishing this for a month haha)

so i'm guessing, it's about time for an update of how life is nowadays.

just roughly, talkin abt stuff.

this'll be th first post in quite a while whr i don't just rip off one of my reflections to copynpaste here cos i was too lazy to type out stuff again. (mostly because there IS no reflection for me to ripoff. haha)

well, that goes to show how much reflections i hav to do for IB. xP

and i srsly spaaaaam for reflections. writing a huge-ass long piece o shit reflections.

Like, for YCS Music Fest, th CAS reflection was 1,111 words long. =DD

when i showed it to Mr Walsh, he flipped through all the documents and flipped to the reflection page, he went TOTALLY shocked and was like "ohh my God, this is fantastic" hahaa wth.

as for lessons, they're pretty alright. i'm lucky to have good teachers and none of the fail ones. =P

so i gotta be thankful for that. right now for chem and physics it's still all basics that we've done in O levels tho. ESPECIALLY chem. omg sia. friggin 20+ questions JUST on calculating empirical formula, and moles and concentration. so BLOODY sian.

English is okay, it's a heck of a lot more like Lit. anal-ing texts and stuff.

Math is hardcore mind-effing sia. i swear. touching on complex numbers. and it's like wtefff just happened. oO. but so far i'm following i guess. frm parent teacher conference, Mr Scheelbeek says i'm a "bright kid" so. i guess i'll be okay.

Econs is pretty cool. so far i understand it. and i guess i'm doing alright.

Chinese, hoooly damn. so friggin retarded man. at first i was in A2 standard. and i realised that that is some bloody hell lot of hard work. THREE books to study. and it's bordering on chinese LITERATURE. so yeah. hell no. i dropped to B standard. and like wth lol. it's damn slack. and th teacher translates every other sentence into english, without prompts. like lol.

study-wise, i don't think i have to worry a lot, cos i've been doing well in all my tests so far. xD

all th most recent results

Physics 81%, Chem 94%, Econs 96%, Maths 100%, Chinese 88%(compo).

and i've started to belong to th SJII community alrdy. made a cool bunch of frens. =D

so that's alright. in time i wonder if i'll love SJII as much as SJI? or even more. haha i ain't putting that possibility as impossible.

well, i joined 4 activities after sch. and i stay back so much that on friday when i actually DO have a free afternoon after sch, it feels weird leaving sch at 3. haha.

cos of CAS, i joined so many i guess. but then again, now it feels like my sch life would be pretty empty and bland without all the activities.

so, Mondays, Basketball.

It's pretty slack, i mean like we don't rly drill a lot. just every start of training run a few rounds, do some warmup, do a few passing/dribbling drills. then after that just playing match the whole rest of the training. so it's quite fun luh. It's also quite tiring, after running th few rounds. i'm like, damn unfit lol. can't run, and no stamina at all. ah well. hopefully w all th activities i'm doing i'll get into better shape.

Tuesdays, YCS.

mmm, YCS a bit disappointing luh, cos of the recruitment. only got in 2 grade 8s at first. and one more. Though one good point was Grade 11s joining, since grade 11s usually don't bother joining YCS (no CAS points). actually had more grade 11s joining than grade 8s actually. =P Meetings are facilitated by Elvina (tho not for long. she's leaving -,-), so they're quite okay. th new members sometimes can't settle down or focus tho, so that's kinda a problem. but meetings are rly quite okay. it's not easy to facilitate meetings tho. know what topic to do, which direction to lead the discussion and such. and to keep ppl interested and 'entertained'

Wednesdays, Service w ToaPayoh elderly.

service is pretty interesting. we get to do stuff and actually do something meaningful. it's more fun than what going to old folk's homes usually entails, havin random conversations, playing chess or smth. or actually idk. but wad we do is sorta fun so yeah. we entertain th elderly, dance, sing, do games/activities and such. it's quite meaningful, and there is one old lady who keeps insisting that we don't have to come, if we're too busy, we shld focus on studies. so sweet. =P. th elderly are also quite enthu (sometimes), they try to follow what we're doing, though it's difficult for them.

Thursdays, American Street Dance.

just awesome. totally man. there are mats for us to practice those more painful stuff (flips, handsprings, headstands etc). the seniors are damn pro. like john, backflipping everywhere and like wth luh. And he told us about one ex-senior who was working on DOUBLE backflips. like wthhhhhhh GAY. totally. how is that even physically humanly possible. people doublebackflips on motorcycles off 4m ramps. not jumping off th floor just like that. but okay moving on. I've improved cos of this activity, no doubt. my handstands are that wee bit better now. (mainly thanks to a recent session w roniel, but also cos of the practice that i'm getting.) my headstands are also better. i can actually take off my hands for a brief moment now. and i'm doing it properly, cos th weight is off my hands as much as possible, and my body is vertical. (i think). i've also learned some other stuff. like rolling kipups. honestly tho i haven't really learned a whole lot. but i'm slowly learning. xP. slow as usual.

okay that's it for activities. and i suppose sch in general.

YCS,

well, huisuo finally got cleaned out. (i can't say "i finally cleaned out huisuo", cos i didn't do anth, apart frm take out a pathetic small bag of stuff). totally needed th help of pingping, someone who actually knows what all the random stuff in huisuo is, and knows what needs to be kept and what can and should be thrown away. well thankfully that part is done. xP

it's kinda weird tho, like, i don't really know all th newer YCS members well. cos i missed march camp i suppose, and also like for last year's christmas camp (which was AWESOMEEEEE) i was kangle and didn't interact a whole lot w everyone. ohwell. apparently, it seems i'm gonna serve another term. my name is put down under nominees.. =O. tsk. so much for Carrie and my plan to level up and become laojiao. hmm

weeelll...... uhhh.

yup. so i guess that about wraps it up. =)

as usual,

Payce out,

Justin Cyril Ng

Free dress day in school (cost $5 dang)

PLUS last day of school terrm YEAAAH

i'z back, and it's about my first ever fully in charge project where i am overall in charge.

('sides SCGS Combined activity. but that was bull. i wasn't totally incharge, just assigned as it.)

well AANNYYWAY. yeah.

MUSIC FEST!!!!

always an awesome time (especially at night at macs till epic late.)

i'mma say firstly, that it has been one helluva journey to plan it. A lotta downs and not a whole bunch of ups. Indeed i was wad you could call depressed at a few points in time cos of planning, and all the shitload of stuff that was engulfing me. BUT, in the end, i learned a lot. and i don't regret doing all that shit and saikang and planning and preparing.

Since i DID write a 1,111 word reflection for Music Fest for CAS, i'll just copy chunks of it here. (excuse the good english) =P

"Through the course of planning this event there were several times when I felt like giving up because I didn’t feel like it was worth it to bear all the stress and difficulties for the sake of this event. However, I was able to persevere, and I feel that because of this, I have become a better person. I learned many things from planning Music Fest, and also learnt more about myself and how I can improve myself on the whole.

well that's basically all th relevant stuff frm th reflection itself.

I gotta thank my committee, really, cos there was a lot of effort put in by all of them.

Christian, for Deco-ing

Lionel, for Log-ing and settling hell lots of shit regarding music fest.

Benjamin, for stage manage-ing and handling the auditorium stuffs and equipment

AND of course,

Braxton, for program-ing and vice-chair-ing. and facing all th tonnes of bullshit that came with Music Fest, esp frm the schools taking forever to decide wad they were gonna perform. Also, for doing such an EPIC AWESOME job sitting in the AV room almost whole of music fest (which must've sucked balls) and running th whole music fest thru th laptop.

oh right and Carrie, for volunteering to be Secretary, and doin th tags for committee. lol

well yeah, wad else is thr to say.

i gotta be grateful for getting over my brief period of emo-ness too.

ttly grateful for Ji Yang (once again) for being sooo totally supporting and encouraging.

always readily spamming encouragements and cheer-uping stuff. it ttly helped, even if it was just words. He even came all the way to nativity church ready to come check it out and physically be there. AWESOME maan. BF ftw~

Now? i am totally sick of planning anything and will NOT be planning anything for a pretty long time. haha.

But, i really hope Music Fest was a success (as everyone keeps saying, but yu neva know if it's true, or they're just saying that. so yea)

To the new YCS members especially. hope that this gave them a short glance at YCS spirit.

speaking of that, P&W wasn't TOO good lol. idk, just didn't seem to hype EVERYONE up. ohwells. i certainly went high. and started spamming P&W songs after that lol.

i was friggin high when ZBL (Bryan's band) played Face Down too. friggin headbanging and jumping in my seat lawl. EPIC. SONG. which makes me think maybe a rock concert would be friggin cool (i always thot it'd be too noisy to have fun, and crowded). Ergo, ROCK NIGHT in SJII. hopin it'll be damn high, and i'll go crazy. xP

and to end off,

"~aand life is a road that I wanna keep going, love is a river I wanna keep flowing. Life is a road, now and forever, WONDERFUL JOURNEY~~

HELLYEAH

which is kinda like sec 1 orientation, so yeah.

Well, i started off before the camp thinking,

"okay, i'm gonna be uber-enthu and hyper and my kids are gonna follow me and be damn happy for camp and damn high. I'm gonna be like those super friendly and enthusiastic facils who are damn influential and respected by juniors, and be able to make them like me."

haha, wishful thinking i guess,

but i think i did a fair job in facil-ing.

well, firstly, when intro-ed to the group and having ice breakers.

I was tryin to be hyper and enthu, like spastic smile and waving and all.

members were, Shan, Terry, Ethan, Sook Lin, Natasha, Sarah

Three of them were in same tutor group, the other three in same tutor group.

lol.

well icebreakers were quite okay.

altho i think there could've been more games to play that would get them to warm up to each other. names was no problem because thr were only 6 of them.

so i improv-ed the name chain game to add in hobby, fav subject least fav subject.

and played the hand game, and duck duck goose.

they were pretty okay in the game, they played it with some enthusiasm.

then they to rooms to put stuff down.

Dinner was okay, Vanessa joined us arnd then.

Shan refused to eat veg, tho i tried to force him.

They showed a movie (Cool Running)

i tink it was a pretty nice movie to watch.

tho the group found it boring. haha

Group reflections was okay.

we did balloons and bricks as usual.

also just had a brief sharing and talking.

Vanessa was much better at talking to them, i guess i need to work on that area.

well then was lights out.

and facils went arnd doing they're respective duties/slacking/sleeping.

Before facil debrief was just us slacking and goofing off in the glass hall.

Facil debrief, tons of ppl put up hands to say they could tie water bombs,

in the end only had arnd 5 ppl.

i stayed throughout the whole 2.5 hours to tie water bombs, it was very sleepying.

well then th group awoke for night games at 3 am.

(yeah, awesome right)

i was enthu then, cos it was games and all.

i wanted to set an example, so that th group would be less likely to be sleepy and tired.

i was basically bouncing around luh, and acting hyper (relatively anyway)

the games was pretty alright. although, the group didn't really bond, there was not a whole lot of teamwork, especially in the passing the polo sweet game.

i told the boys they could help shield from the water,

but they didn't budge at all to help.

the girls also didn't work tgt with th boys when it was they're turn.

felt kinda hopeless and annoyed, cos i couldn't get them to work together, and they weren't listening to me.

anyways, there was this game whr they were scaring them in the room.

my group was scared to go at first.

the girls, basically.

but i'm glad they managed to conquer their INITIAL fears. because they realised it wasn't that scary anyway.

i told them to have confidence and just do it.

so i hope that they took away something from that, that you have to be brave and just GO for it sometimes.

it's a cool lesson i learnt last time at YCS camp, putting a lit candle in your mouth.

well yeah. night games ended, i finally went to sleep till 10.30

well then lunch was the usual, Shan nvr eat veg again.

Vanessa wasn't able to convince him either.

Then came wet games.

this i was really disappointed in my group, because they weren't participative in some of the games.

i tink they just really have to get over they're inhibitions and dislikes, because the games which didn't involve something unpleasant, they were perfectly fine in playing.

but the games like Dog & Bone in Mud, and the Flour Game, they just ttly gave up.

i set examples for them, because i did play for both of those games.

however, they just didn't want to do it.

i tink Terry was fantastic tho, he showed really good enthusiasm in those games (or at least the flour one)

i tink it might have been a lot worse if he hadn't stepped up.

sigh. i just wish the group would've given it a chance, and put their discomforts aside

although i guess they did okay for some of the other games, such as the blindfold one.

they could really have had better teamwork during some of the games tho, despite what Vanessa said. haha

well anyway that's wet games.

after that TJ and a bunch of facils were wrestling in the mud lol.

then was a time-wasting Movie

and Dinner.

Mass reflection was a bit ... well. not so awesome lah.

the reflection should have been a bit more directed, and especially considering the time given.

i felt anyway that it was a bit long.

i started with the usual stuff, favorite part of camp? why etc.

wad have yall learnt?

after a while was kinda difficult to think of more prompts.

Vanessa wanted to do affirmations for everyone in the group,

which was honestly quite difficult to tink of one for everyone.

i dno, i personally find it very difficult to tink of unique affirmations for everyone.

i guess i shld pay more attention to my group members next time, be more aware of their personalities and stuff.

Vanessa managed to think of stuff tho.

although definitely would not have thought of those stuff.

and Vanessa was talking a lot about bullying.

maybe cause it's not a small problem in SJII.

but i don't know how big the issue is, tho there has been expulsion because of it.

Well that's basically the camp.

General Reflections:

Looking at Vanessa and comparing our different ways of faciling, i definitely learned some stuff.

Firstly, if i want groups to be enthu, i gotta show it.

like during night games i was saying hey gimme energy in a kinda dead-ish voice lol. so yeah.

so, i gotta REALLY be enthu, and not afraid of what others think. just let it out y'know?

And well, Vanessa was really good at talking to the group, just engaging them in small chat.

or maybe it's just me really bad at it lol.

i mean, i find it kinda hard to talk to ppl i don't really know.

as a facil, it's a bit easier cos i know that they appreciate being talked to. (right? oO)

but all the same, kinda awkward at times, when i can't think of a topic to engage them in.

so i gotta learn how to do that sia.

I gotta pay more attention to the group, allow myself to know them better, so i can understand them, and also pay more attention to those who need it, or encourage them.

I know it feels awesome when yur facil understands you or recognises something about you, and i wanna be able to make my group members feel that way, awesome.

so yeah. gotta be more sensitive to my group too.

Awlrights, i tinkzez that's all liao.

more or less,

it was a pretty interesting camp, and i definitely learned from it.

Payce out,

Justin Cyril Ng

and right now i'm feeling like shit.

like WTF?

i mean. i don't even have any homwork yet (well thr is ONE ws but it's not much)

i'm guessing tmr's chemistry will provide homework too.

but that's nt th point. or th main reason why i'm feeling so bullshitted

i tink it's all th stuff i hav t do for YCS.

*gasp*

ikr. YCS is work?

but like. waaah sian.

got orientation video to do.

SJII's orientation to settle (esp since they awol for like so long they dno th orientation got brochure and video and whatnot)

Music fest, the team that's gonna do (stupid luh. amplify and new song. they go and ask new song. complicated my life. BLLLeaaH)

and i got all the shit to settle about my subjects.

AND WHAT THE FK CHINESE WANNA HAVE EXTRA LESSONS

screw that man. i'm not effing supposed to be taking chinese now. fk.

the cher say chinese gonna be hardwork sommore. wah like i don hav enough of GG ness taking higher math and phyics -,-

which apparently everyone says will mother die one.

so like wtf.

ugh. -,-

this is sooo effed up man.

gah. i dno luh.

i know i don't really have THAT much on my plate right now.

but the prospect that things are just gonna get more busy.

AND music fest proper prep hasn't even started yet. so wth.

DAUNTING AND PISSING OFF MAN.

AAAAAAHHHHHHHH.

okay i'mma let it out.

lucky got Ji Yang to talk random shit to and pile all of this up.

but nao i'mma gonna listen to music while stoning on my bed. and try t go t sleep